EISHA
Staring in the mirror, I see an image of myself reflecting back at me. I see my cherished values shine through my eyes. They tell me to continue carrying them, confidently. This is my daily routine— seeing my identity evolve with my core values as I style the uniquely colored or patterned scarf I deem matches my outfit that day.
At times, others’ glances make me pause and wonder what they perceive. And honestly, what they see as I wear my religion intertwined within my outfit. Do they too, see the values my scarf symbolizes, or simply fabric placed in a specific manner?
As I have grown, I have come to understand that from another's perspective it could be difficult to see my individual identity beyond my choice of clothing. This has driven me to try and show people through my words and actions how my hijab is an extension of who I am. Even more-so, how it holds in its every stitch— my cherished values, my experiences, and the conviction I hold in honor of my faith. Woven together, creating something strong and beautiful for me to display.
I made the personal decision to permanently begin wearing the hijab when I was thirteen years old. Every single day since then, as I wrap my scarf, I make the conscious decision to stand strong in the Islamic values that resonate with me: upholding respect, giving to others, self-reflecting, and practicing compassion.
When I was younger I remember watching my mom wear her hijab and exemplify a strong, independent, Muslim woman, especially in the 21st century. Growing up alongside her being my most profound role model, I was able to see what her hijab represented— always standing by her truth. By looking up to her and through my own experiences, I was able to become a person who stands by her truth, even when others may not hold the same truth as I do.
As highlighted through the media, the hijab is a controversial topic. As a Muslim woman who makes the conscious choice to wear the hijab, it has become paradoxical for me to understand how such an ingrained part of my character, could be seen as oppressive. At the same time, there is an incredible amount of support for Muslim women, whether they wear the hijab or not. Through this, I hold with conviction that I do not need to waver in my beliefs.
My story has led me to this built understanding of the role of hijab in my life. The moments of reflection I have, fuel me with inquiry to understand more about others and myself. I have learned that what my hijab stands for, allows me to connect with others of the same or of different beliefs: invigorating conversations where people share with me their own stories, reminding me how we are more similar than we are different.
For me, the hijab is a representation of my identity, my truth, my mother’s truth, and a way for me to express what I stand for and who I strive to be. And just like me, it is ever evolving— looking towards the next chapter in my story.